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Great I Am

     Lately things in life have been rough. I feel like every plan I've had has fallen apart; my personal life is stressful, circumstances overwhelming, and fundraising and Thailand prep have not been going as I had imagined they would be by this point. There are several times since the new year when I've thrown my hands up in the air saying, "I am in over my head I can't do this." I kept focusing on what wasn't happening in my life regarding Thailand and every other situation instead of focusing on who God is and how he's capable of the impossible.
    This past Sunday during worship I was praising. As I was singing I began to pray over various people and circumstances in my life. The last song in worship service was Great I Am (which happens to be my favorite. If you've never heard it click here and give it a listen.). As I sang this song and begged God to cover and provide, in all the ways I wanted of course, I felt urged to go down to the altar. I assumed that I would go down to the altar and God would reveal amazing things to me. He would tell me the rest of my money for Thailand was coming in the mail next Tuesday, or that certain people were magically better and taken care of, or that other situations would be magically better and brighter in all of the ways I wanted them to be taken care of.
     Instead what happened is God asked me to listen to the words I was singing and through those words he spoke to me. No matter what is happening in the world. Regardless of our circumstances or the circumstances of those we love God is and will always be the Great I Am. He is the beginning and the end of all things. When I can't figure things our or fix them; when I'm overwhelmed and lost, desperate, helpless, and incapable of overcoming he still sits on the throne. I don't have all the answers and I never will and that's okay because he does. He is the King of Kings. Lord of lords, Name above all names. He sits on the throne and He holds the whole world and me personally in his hands. He is in complete and total control. He is The Great I Am and that's enough. That is all I need. When life falls apart, let is fall apart because regardless of whether or not it comes back together the only thing that matters is that Christ is on the throne. Through it all he is still the Almighty God and that MUST be enough for me. The King is on the throne
     So, there it is. Whether it's me trying to get to Thailand or it's something in your own life just remember that at the end of the day God is on the throne and that is the only thing that matters. He called us to do great things, not easy things, and we've been mixing the two up for too long. When it gets hard and it looks impossible we just remember that we serve the Great I Am and we keep serving him even when it's hard.

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